you’re going to play it cool, i know

the longest it’s been

was a really long time

and i hate to go into

any specifics, but

i wish when i told you

that i was honest and

simultaneously,

obviously,

Lonely,

you could have agreed

to move on to the

next pretty girl you

could find freckled anywhere

and not in a bar

belonging to my favorite

neighborhood that i am

still trying to get used to

in a town far away that i

ran as far as i could to

feel like everything was

finally and thoroughly

absolutely

okay,

but i know deep down,

i am counting on my myself to

pull out of this deep mess that

i didn’t dig too far down in to

solve the situations the fastest

that i could in the shortest

amount of time i gave myself to

avoid feeling

Lonely

because i am not and

i wish you actually

were.